This should be a main topic on this blog. Why? Because it comes after fun Friday (or our Friday I’m in love - years ago).

Over the week stress was build up, and if you did not let that out at least until Friday, then you get a sad Saturday. It is something I go through after a long time where I have experienced sad moments in my life.

This is one of that days. This week there was a special day, a day I normally would not work, where I should chill and relax with my family. But after many years I changed it to another day. Don’t ask why, it was a better choice then. And there was the Saturday and my stress build up I don’t know how. A lot of factors came together.

These factors made me mad, and after some cool down I realised that it was a situation I could not change as I wanted it. This is not something easy to change and it makes you mad and you try to find the fault in others. And at the end you know that is wrong! But you can’t stop yourself and hurt others that will hurt you back.

It took a while I found out that this situation starts on mostly every Saturday and goes on until everybody calms down. But it does not disappear.

How come it came to this?

That is what I need to figure out, I write it down. This is something that is worth to overcome it!

So, where does it come from? Most likely because of the Gesellschaft … Why? Because I feel it and analysed the situation.

The second point is my little family. We live here without family in this town. We almost get no help in raising our little boss, we do it on our own. We decided to let him grow up with us, and not by a caretaker that is no family or friends of ours.

Little boss is growing fine and he surprises us almost every day. But he can be stubborn, and it takes a while until we have him under control. (We are still learning how to mediate between being too nice and strict, trying not to get angry first) This takes a lot of nerves that most people do not realize, and it takes a lot of mental power to overcome this.

What to do?

How to overcome that? Well, I don’t know and must find out.